c h o c o l a t h e a d w e l c o m e s y o u

Come January, my favorite 60s oriented band will be performing in KL. White Shoes & The Couples Company, MCPA Hall, 5th January 2008 and me. I’ll definitely going to be there. No matter what happen, I will be there, standing amidst other frantic White Shoes lovers, screaming their lungs out once White Shoes is on the stage. I will be there. Standing at the back, savouring every moment, taking in every breath blissfully, smiling relentlessly, grinning to the lyrics of Aksi Kucing, singing along to Senandung Maaf and maybe snapping some photos for memento. I doubt I will be taking much photos because I will be standing there, intoxicated, smiling and I might even forgot that I bring my camera along. Plus, optical zoom sucks. I’ll probably borrow Sri’s DSLR for this matter.

If I die that night, I’ll be one happy corpse. Overstating? Me? No. I am just a “bentar-lagi-jadi-corpse” girl who are soooo in love with White Shoes. Well, I think I deserve this. I’ve been down for so long, I need something to cheer me up again and White Shoes is an F-ing godsend. But I have to painfully wait for another 35 more days before I get to see them in action. And that is throbbing. I have to go through my dreary days and nights, being miserable before I could smile again on the 5^th. God, please speed up the time for me. I don’t care about Christmas, I don’t care about Aidiladha, I don’t care about New Year, I don’t care about registration day, I don’t care about my result, I don’t care about my pointer. Please fast forward the time to the 5^th so that I can fill my empty heart with Aprillia Apsari’s angelic voice. But until then, I have to make myself busy, lamenting on the passing days, thinking about all of the horrific things that occurred to me for the past 2 months, weeping helplessly while I’m asleep and waking up in the middle of the night, thinking of my bleak future and spent the next 2 hour reflecting the few moments in my life when I am actually happy. And with every fleeting second, I cry myself to sleep.

There are many thing that makes people happy. Some people have a certain passion to turn to when they feel they have nothing in this world to hang on to. I have been asked once about the P word. Surprisingly, I couldn’t think of anything. I could easily lie, but I didn’t. I smiled and my head were cracking, trying to find one thing that I have a deep passion for. Well, as you guessed it, I couldn’t find one. Pathetically, I asked if sleeping is considered as a passion. I mean, it is a passion if we loved it so much kan? So I love to sleep. So what. So what if I am an unproductive jerk who spent her days walking around for hours, watching people pass her by with inexplicable expressions on their faces. So what if I walked under drizzling rain with only my faithful brown pullover hood on. So what if I walk all day long with no definite destination. I don’t care what people think. As long as it makes me happy and keep my mind off thinking the horrible things in life, I will keep on walking for miles, smiling while looking up to the black sky, ready to pour down the calming drops from heaven. As for the P word, I haven’t found it yet. Screw it. I don’t need passion to be happy.

Note: Oh ya. White Shoes & The Couples Company will be performing on the 5^th of January 2008, MCPA Hall 2, KL alongside with terrific opening bands such as Hujan, The Times and Couple (Gasp. 4 of my favorites on one stage. I don’t think I can handle this, this EXTREME happiness.). Tickets sold at RM15.

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